I am a common doctor and joined CCP in isolated wards when fighting against an epidemic under the invitation from my mento. However， I was very politically naive at that time， and I really knew nothing about the hidden historical truth behind this party. After joining the party， I participated in "organizational activities" in the hospital， and the collective voice acting made me sick. But at the time， I just thought it was a bad style， and I didn't have a deep understanding of the thought and personality behind the performance. The daily routine in the system made me feel suffocated， so I left for a new job where there was still a CCP organization that mobilized me to join the branch. I just verbally agreed， but never joined by thinking that if I left the system， why I should tie up my soul again? As I began to travel to different countries on business trips， by communicating with international colleagues in democratic countries， I became more and more aware of China's backwardness and arrogance. I attribute this to the dictatorship of party culture. I began to pay attention to overseas democrats' voice， who narrated the history and revealed the events that happened in China. With my own experience， I gradually became enlightened. I found books such as 1984， Brave New World， and Мы to read， to deepen my thought. And I learned about the false propaganda of the party， the absurd and cruel mass movements since 1949， the greed of the Zhao family， and the ugliness of the accomplices. . . I saw lawyers being tortured when fighting for human rights， I saw the activists’ home broken when fighting for a democratic China. I see blood flowing， dyeing the land and the sky， as well as HK. I see deafening shouts and sad tears. I see indifferent and numb eyes and the dazzling bloody buns. . . I am watching the back view of the relatives， friends and family members distancing away from me， and me embracing my lonely shadow . . .
I haven't participated in any organization activities or paid my party dues for more than one decade， which means I have automatically left the party according to the party constitution. I am well aware that I have already cut off from the party in my mind. However， today please still allow me to make a formal break with my history of joining CCP on this platform.
Thank you Epoch Times for providing such a good platform and the encouragement.